I want to start with a HUGE thank you for the AMAZINGLY kind and supportive comments to my Ironman post. I am so very, very grateful. It really helped me heal.
I have taken some time to process, pout, contemplate, snivel, examine, and generally piss and moan. One of my biggest fears has been to work really hard at something, give it all I have, and still fail. Well, that happened and I am here to tell you that it SUCKED ASS, but it did not kill me. It is not even close to the worst thing that has ever or could ever happen to me. So time to go forward. I am ready to move on.
With that said I have made a decision regarding my next Ironman attempt.
I have agonized over this. Many of you know I was looking at Redman and Beach to Battleship this year. I think I wanted to "erase" this failure as quickly as possible. Plus I would get to see many friends that will be out there racing, but several things made me decide that those races weren't right for me this year.
1. My family has already made many financial and time sacrifices for me to pursue this goal. My husband does not do triathlon and traveling that distance again so soon would eliminate a vacation we had wanted to take in April. That is really not fair to him.
2. Both races are during the school year and would require me to take time off from school. I am a teacher, I need to fit this into the time I already have off.
3. I have work to do. I am too slow. I am not being self-deprecating. I am being honest.
I truly believe that I have the endurance necessary to complete an Ironman, but that is only part of the task, the other part is to be able to do it within the prescribed amount of time. I am too close to the cut offs. If any small mishap occurs or, as we have seen, if there are less than ideal conditions I can not make the time requirement.
I want to go into my next Ironman attempt with a better cushion on those times. (Umm, and a little less cushion on me. More about that later) Of course, I have now chosen a race that has a shorter cut off. The Vineman mid-race cutoffs are all the same, but the overall cut off time is 16 hours. Yikes.
Looks like I have some speed work in my future.
10 hours ago