16 hours ago
"...In the end, people either have excuses or experiences; reasons or results; buts or
brilliance. They either have what they wanted or they have a detailed list of all the rational reasons why not."
~ Anonymous (taken from Matt Erbele's, It Takes Time to Get Good)
Saturday, September 20, 2008
I am running my first 50K (31.1 miles for us ugly Americans) today. All I can think, is what the SAM HELL was going through my pea brain when I signed up to do this?
Jane came in last night from Texas. She is such a trooper! She has been sick all week, but she is willing to give this thing a go. Of course, what else would you expect from someone that PR'd a half-iron triathlon with a dog bite wound wrapped in duct tape?!
We had dinner last night (at around 8:30 pm [10:30 pm her time] due to my catastrophically poor planning and absolutely shit schedule) and it was so cool to meet her. I started following her blog about a year or so ago and am always inspired by her honesty, humor, and get back up and fight attitude. She ROCKS (hee hee. Sorry Jane) and I am very stoked to get to do this run with her.
But as I sit here drinking my coffee I am plagued with worry:
1. The biggie is, what if I don't make the 8 hour cutoff? Really, I am more worried that I won't get a t-shirt or WORSE, they will have to wait and be mad at me for signing up for a race where I there was a high probability that I wouldn't make the cut off.
2. What if I am so slow and Jane feels like she is trapped with a lead anchor all day? Oh worse yet, I am a hyper, irritating, idiot that she is trapped with? That is pretty likely too.
3. What if they tow my car that I left in the parking lot of the finish yesterday because I didn't want to ride the bus to the start? Or more likely, what if someone steals it? I fucking hate Santa Cruz. I have a novel idea, pot-smoking losers, get a fucking job instead of breaking into cars!
4. What if I can't make it at all and hikers find my lifeless body being gnawed on by ground squirrels? Alright, less likely. Ground squirrels aren't really known for there scavenging, carnivorous nature, but still, a concern.