"...In the end, people either have excuses or experiences; reasons or results; buts or
brilliance. They either have what they wanted or they have a detailed list of all the rational reasons why not."
~ Anonymous (taken from Matt Erbele's, It Takes Time to Get Good)
Friday, July 31, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
With a half-iron triathlon, of course!
I am off to pick up LA Run Buddy and head up to Barb's Race. You may remember last years Barb's Race was, well, ... let's just say, NOT blazing fast. My goal is to beat last year's time of 9:22:16. Yeesh. I am hoping I can at least handle that.
My back up goal, as always, is to finish the race with a smile and have a fun weekend with my buddy.
They have athlete tracking. I am almost hesitant to post this since I feel like I still owe a lot of you for the day of your life you will never get back from tracking me at IMCdA, but here it is:
Barb's Race Athlete Tracking
I will post my number when I get it tomorrow.
I hope you all have a FAB weekend!
Monday, July 27, 2009
As per usual I must tell a lead in story before we actually get to the marathon report. Don't act surprised. Here is the quick and dirty
SF marathon stats:
Official time: none (lost my fucking chip. Can you believe that?!)
Total Garmin time: 5:54 (sadly, NOT a personal worst, but pretty damn bad)
Total Garmin distance: 26.7 (we will get to that. Oh yes, we will.)
Pre wedding madness and SFM Expo
As some of you may remember my best friend and Run Buddy was getting married on the Saturday before the race so I had planned to go to the race expo on Friday and I was going to be lucky enough to meet up with several bloggy buddies there. Well, best laid plans and all.
The first panicked bride call came at 7 am, followed by about 10 others. (That part is true, but I have highly dramatized the following conversations for, well, dramatic effect, and I like making fun of her 'cuz I am so sweet. :o) )
Run Buddy Bridezilla: I lost the bubbles! Who has a fucking wedding without bubbles?! The wedding is off!
RBR: It's ok, I will get some bubbles
*We had three more calls exactly like this over two different types of ribbon, favor cards, and a hole punch.
Run Buddy: We can't fit the ice in the car! We will have warm drinks! We can not have warm drinks! The wedding is off!
RBR: It's ok, I can get ice tomorrow on my way
Run Buddy Bridezilla: There is no iron at the house! The groom's shirt looks like he packed it in a fucking sandwich bag! What is wrong with him?! The wedding is off!
RBR: It's ok, I will bring an iron
Between that, a meeting with my nutritionist, and lunch with an old friend I was running WAY late for the expo. I had expected to miss everyone.
But I DIDN'T!!
This is the picture I texted to Run Buddy. Thankfully, she had regained her characteristic good humor by then
There were actually four colors: Red -Stegosaurus, Orange-Brontosaurus, Purple - Tricerotops, and Blue - Tyranosaurus Rex.
The morning was insane since I had to pick up three things that needed to remain cold: the cakes, the flowers, and 80 pounds of ice. Then there is the issue of driving all this from SJ to Moss Landing (normally 45 minutes) when every other asshole from the valley wants to get to the beach or to Redneckfest 2009 also known as the Gilroy Garlic Festival.
Isn't she beautiful!! I don't know why I look like I am sucking on lemons.
They even surprised me with a birthday cake. I can not even express to you how wonderful this woman is and how much she means to me.
I drove into the city since I live close, but with an early start I had to get up at 2:30 am leave by 3:30 am to get there around 4:30 am.
I had gone to bed at 12:30 the night before, so... yeah.
I was up late getting my outfit ready because this may be how a demure, pretty, little 27 year old celebrates her birthday at a marathon...
This is how the 40 year old ME celebrates her birthday at a marathon..
In the parking lot I met this really cool, WAY hardcore triathlete named Russ that was going for a BQ time on the SF course. He helped me find the race start and we chatted in the port-o-potty line.
I told him that I would be thinking about him and would send him good vibes at 9:00am when he should be finishing to qualify. (I actually was feeling like SHIT at 8:59am, so I stopped to send him a "I hope you are sprinting to the finish right now!" email from my Blackberry. He cracked up when he got home and read it. Unfortunately, no BQ for him "only" 3:48. Christ, who ARE these people I talk to?!)
Then I got a text from Penny (Southbay Girl), about 10 seconds later we were squealing like little girls!
Not long after Willie and his buddy Bill come up and give us a big hug and there was more little girl screaming. Ok, that was just Willie, but I could tell that Bill wanted to. ;o) We all meandered over to the Wave 4 start.
In the starting corral I realized I was not wearing my timing chip. So I look at my number (they were stickers attached to the numbers) and no chip. WTF? Who loses a sticker?
Oh well. I guess I am running this bitch all unofficial like. Whatever.
Willie, Mr. sub-four hour marathoner starts fluttering about how he isn't ready for this and that he was thinking about just running it with me (lest you forget, dear reader, I am a way OVER-5 hour marathoner) Yeah, pretty hilarious. He lasted all of about 25 feet before he glanced back over his shoulder said "Have a good run!"
With that, he and Mr. 'Speedy Pants' Bill were off like the proverbial prom dress. Penny was doing the half marathon and we decided to run it together. Woo hoo!!
and my feet were very sore like they get at mile 23, only it was mile 3. I knew I had a long day ahead. However, Penny and I had a blast! We were taking pictures, freezing our asses off on the bridge, ... oh wait , that was just me. Penny is a freak and loved it.
Running over the bridge was kind of cool, but it was so foggy that you, honestly, could not tell it was even a bridge. It was like running on any ol' road. A wet slippery road that was really crowded.
At this point I was seriously considering just saying "Fuck it" and crossing the half marathon finishing line with Penny and being done with it. We ran on into Golden Gate park and only sheer stubbornness and ego made me go right at the Half-Full split and continue on by myself for the next 13.2 miles.
Slog. Slog. Slog.
At mile 19, there is the first half finish line again. Internal dialog: "Fuck this I should bail. Fuck this I should bail. Oh, fuck it, I will keep going."
Slog. Slog. Slog
Mile 20 runs down the famous Haight Street. Referred to as THE Haight by cool kids in the know. Let me fill you in on the truth about THE Haight. It is a SHITHOLE. It is not edgy and bohemian. It is a drug addict filled, SHITHOLE and tops the charts as one of the places you are most likely to get mugged and beaten death for 12 dollars.
After we got off Haight, the diversions started. The first time I came to an intersection and was told by the volunteers to go in a different direction than everyone I had seen before me I thought it was odd. The fourth time, I started to get a little pissed. Each time I noticed the mile markers got a little farther apart. So the whole "it is the same distance as the regular course" thing was bullshit. It was mostly the same distance, but when you get diverted at every opportunity it apparently adds half a mile. You may think "what the hell is she bitching about? She ran 26.2 miles and she doesn't want to run extra half mile?"
No. No, I fucking don't.
Finally we got back to the water which meant that I only had about 2 miles to go. Just about everyone around me was suffering. A pretty fit looking guy and I were passing each other at regular intervals. He would run, limp, walk. I would run, swear, walk.
When we hit the mile 26 marker I said "Thank sweet baby Jesus" and he said "Where was he at mile 15 when this started sucking" Hoo! That made me laugh REALLY hard. Like not-able-to-run hard. If you are out there dude, good show, good show!
And then 5 hours and 54 minutes and 26. 7 miles after I started I finally crossed the damn finish line. Sheesh.
Penny was there for me at the finish line and we rousted Willie and Bill from their slumber to come have lunch.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Honestly, I look, feel, and act younger than I did when I was 20. (ok, the 'look' part is a big, fat lie, but stay with me here people) I am pretty stoked about it. For the most part, my 20's sucked ass. My 30's were about growth, change, and empowerment and, really, a hell of a lot of fun. I expect the 40's to be where I take the empowerment of my 30's and run with it.
If you thought I was obnoxious before, hoo wee, you best delete blog this from your Reader right now!
For my lady friends:
In a random Google search for silly images, I found this article about why women should celebrate turning 40 and I liked it. It talks about a conversation with Oprah about turning 40 (Yes, even though I hardly ever watch her show, I worship at the 'Alter of Oprah'. I think she is amazing, inspiring, and deserves everything wonderful thing she has in her life. If you think or know different don't tell me. Some heroes should just remain heroes. Thank you)
Anyhoo, it ends with a Turning 40 - Top 40 List. It was written as a list of all things a black woman should have and have done by 40 and no, I am not a black woman (pick yourself up off the floor Lindy I know you are shocked ;o) ) but I thought it was a very cool list so I am posting it unedited.
The top 40 - why women should celebrate turning 40 - Column
1.) Peace of mind (and a piece of property).
2.) A will.
4.) A savings account in your own name (and an IRA in the name of your future security).
5.) A mammogram.
6.) A manicure (not to mention a pedicure, a facial and a massage--all on the same day).
7.) A set of matching luggage.
8.) A ticket to some exotic place to unpack it.
9.) A great hairdresser, gynecologist and stockbroker.
10.) A passionate, fiery, unforgettable love affair.
11.) A little black dress that makes you look five pounds thinner.
12.) A sense of humor, style and purpose.
13.) A selfish streak.
14.) A spiritual foundation that gets you through a very bad night without going crazy.
15.) A facial foundation that gets you through a very long day without going ashy.
16.) A good bra.
17.) A good spa.
18.) A library card (used often).
19.) A credit card (used sparingly).
20.) At least one person in your life who says: "You call, I come."
21.) Good body language (multilingual!).
22.) A broken heart and the knowledge you can survive it.
23.) A cause celebre (domestic violence, infant mortality, save the whales--your choice).
24.) A personal relationship with God.
25.) A personal trainer.
26.) Selective amnesia ("What Saturday morning meeting?").
28.) A good skin-care regimen.
29.) The ability to converse on any subject without benefit of concrete knowledge or access to facts.
30.) A shocking secret.
31.) A pair of silk pajamas.
32.) A lifetime membership in at least one organization dedicated to uplifting Black folks (e.g., National Council of Negro Women, the NAACP).
33.) The phone number of someone who is good with their hands.
34.) At least one drop-dead, don't-speak-to-me-because-you-know-you-don't-know-me gorgeous photo of yourself.
35.) A friendship that has stood the test of time.
36.) One last chance to tell the guy you were crazy about in your 20s who treated you like cigarette ashes on the floor what you were too dumb to know when he walked out with your heart in his hands: "Thank you, thank you, thank you."
37.) A soul mate.
38.) Faith, hope and a good fantasy.
39.) A dream.
40.) A plan to make it come true.
Let's go kick some ass ladies. No matter what your age today!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Oh yeah, and his parents and a few other AWESOME Nevadans! Well, our very own Ms. IronJane has provided just the right excuse
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
You so graciously offered to help me with my computer troubles. I hate to impose, but I think I will, indeed, need your services. It seems that I am ONCE AGAIN having trouble with my BRAND NEW computer. So what I need is for you to rub out some Best Buy employees. Rub out, whack, off, fit for a pair of cement boots, whatever you IT mafioso guys are calling it these days. And don't go denying that you IT folk are all mobbed up. Just because we are all a bunch of idiots that entrust our ENTIRE LIVES to a plastic box of electronic shit when we have NO fucking idea how it works and we call you crying that our computer has "crashed" (the only semi-industry term we know) when actually we have stepped on the power strip it is plugged into and turned the fucker off, doesn't mean that we aren't wise to your "connections."
Anyway back to the whacking. The aforementioned employees can be found at the Customer Service Desk, also known as the "Bend Over and Take it Like a Man" Desk. They will be explaining to some chump, I mean, customer, that "Yes, we are aware we sold you a defective piece of shit, but it has been more than 14 days so you are fucked."
The timeline is entirely up to you. You may want to wait a couple of days though. Some crazy chick in a pink baseball cap lost her shit there today, so I think the security has been beefed up.
Thanks! You are a gem!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
I am in Sacramento this week for an scintillating (see title) conference on learning models and teaching strategies for science. Try to not be jealous.
For those of you not familiar with the climate of Sacramento it is similar to the surface of the sun only drier. We walk all of three blocks to the convention center each morning and I end up looking like I have just run a marathon. No, come to think of it, I actually I look better after I have just run a marathon than I do when I get there.
I will spare you the excruciating details of my conference, but I must let go of one small bitch and then I will move on. I promise.
Why, oh, why, must teachers treat all other adults like children? This week I have spent over 32 hours "modeling" learning strategies. Which means they "teach" me to do things like draw a bubble map (don't ask, it is hugely unimportant) and then I get to make the bubble map. I got to use markers and glue sticks and everything!
Word of advice to teacher educators, when you talk to people like they are 15, they tend to act like it.
I did do a little exercise on Sacramento, so let's focus on that.
Tuesday: Run 5 miles - A Solo Tour of Sketchtown, USA
Tower bridge. Very cool drawbridge leading across the American River. It leads from pretty downtown Sacramento to the less scenic West Sacramento
Picture stolen from bprlaw.net
Wednesday: Bike 18 miles - The Bum Slalom
Ferry (?) whatever, big ass boat thing, on the American River. The Tower Bridge is in the back. No, I was not brave enough to photograph the homeless encampments.
After 3 miles of back and forth and a lovely conversation with a young man possessing, at most, 4 teeth, no shirt, and pupils the size of quarters, I discovered that I was in fact on the wrong side of the river. It was one of those times when you are doing something and your mind is screaming at you "You should not be talking to this freak. This is how you end up on the news, dumbass!"
At the end of the conversation he did say that I was "looking REAL gooood" so it is nice to know that I am at least still attractive to toothless, gacked out of their mind, meth addicts.
Little warm, but finally back at Old Town Sacramento.
There were little pockets of shade but they were more of a teasing "Ha! It could be cooler like this, but it is NOT" than actually lowering your core temp and making you more comfortable. I stopped at a public bathroom and waited my turn in line after a homeless guy to take a bird bath in the water fountain to try to cool off. A little less than 8 miles in I bagged at and turned around. When I got back, my car was still there and no one was sleeping in it so I will take that as a "win."
Now, I am from San Jose and we have our fair share of homeless people, but they are our homeless people and I am fairly comfortable with their level of craziness. Crazy people when you are in a strange town are far more scary. I won't be returning to ride alone in West Sacramento any time soon.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
I am going to apologize right now to Calyx because I know she personally HATES this type of expression, but it is all for a good cause. Namely making me feel better about myself. :o)
Ever since I first heard this expression from JohnnyTri and Formulaic I was intrigued (and HIGHLY amused because it had happened to them) Apparently, men do not like to get passed by women. This is true on the bike, the run, or even the swim. It does not seem to matter if they are a good 75 pounds overweight and have been running or riding for 3 weeks and the woman is Paula Radcliffe, it makes them quite pissy and they will do everything in their power to repass said woman. If they get passed and subsequently dropped like a used condom they call it being 'chick'd.'
Now, I get chick'd, dude'd, and even little kid'd all the time, so it hardly phases me. But I am NEVER the chick-er.
Here my chick-ing story..
I went for a long ride with LA Run Buddy. Neither of us were feeling particularly inspired and started late, so pretty early on our planned 50 mile ride turned into a revised plan 30 mile ride. We rode in Woodside which is Hardcore Bicyclist Central for Northern California. So we were two of the handful of riders out there that were not in full cycling kits or riding bikes that cost more than my car. (FYI: 'kit' is the cool-kid name for their little matchy-matchy cycling outfits)
Anyhoo, back to the chick-ing. We are riding up a hill and I am in front because LA Run Buddy is much faster than me and she drops my ass if she leads, so I, being the lowest common denominator, usually set the pace. I am trying to push because I always feel like I am holding LA Run Buddy back and we come up on a fit looking guy on a nice bike. We pass him. I say good morning, he smiles and says good morning back (I know, he was nice, so telling this story is kind of mean, but it may never happen again)
About 10 minutes later we are on another climb (the one that turns into the big ass climb you see in the profile) and he re-passes us, and he is obviously working hard. He smiles. I smile. We all continue to climb, but pretty soon the hill starts to get to him and we pass him again. I say "Hello again!" He smiles back, but it is a little tighter this time. My legs were feeling pretty great so I kept pushing up the hill, when we turned up another hill we saw him still coming, but he never passed us again.
I am not an expert on such things, but I think this qualifies as having chick'd someone.
On another note. Here is a letter to two of our fellow Sunday morning cyclists:
Dear $6,000 Bike Riding, Wearers of Cycle Kits from a Team you PAY to be on:
I understand that you are entirely too cool to be bothered to say "on your left" as you pass the likes of me. And I realize that to you I am no more than a round, purple and pink annoyance on the road. But if you do choose to silently pass me, altogether too close I might add, please have the decency to not stop pedaling 10 feet in front of me, start riding two across with your buddy, and chatting about how small your penises are or whatever the fuck you were chatting about. Your half-ass pedaling and frequent coasting leaves me trapped behind your skinny asses constantly having to adjust my speed and thinking of ways to remove said tiny penises.
The chick in purple and pink that held your wheel all the way back to town (even when you finally did try to drop her)
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Today's blog post is about just that, my epic failure at losing or even maintaining my weight, my legendarily unhealthy relationship with food, and, yet another, plan to try to deal with it.
Sorry. You can click away now if you want. I understand. I am sick of it too.
And so it goes...
I seek comfort and relief in food. I celebrate and rejoice in food. I cure boredom and relieve stress with food. Food is my friend and my enemy.
I know I am not unique and this has been a lifelong problem for me, but I am tired of going on "diets" and trying "eating programs". I am tired of thinking constantly about what I am eating, what I am going to eat, and what other people will think of what I eat. I am tired of obsessing about how much I weigh and how my clothes fit and look on me.
I am over it.
This has been a while in coming, but I am at the point (once a-fucking-gain) where I am severely limited in what clothes I can wear. I am uncomfortable all the time. My weight is the foremost thought in my mind. ALL. THE. TIME. It is effecting my relationship, as it is hard to be romantic when you feel like a disgusting pig.
Here is the quick and dirty version of my battle this time: In the last year I have gained almost 20 pounds. And the vast majority of that has been in the last 4 months.
"Wait," you may wonder, "weren't you Ironman training for the last year? How is that even possible?"
Obviously, you have grossly underestimated my ability to consume obscene quantities of calorie rich, nutrient poor, foods.
Let's do some math, shall we?
In the last 15 months I have:
Run: 1,015.5 miles
Biked: 2,839 miles
Swam: 60.95 miles
Ok, I just posted that to make me feel better. :o) This is a rough post to write.
Here is the real math...
Total calories burned from workouts: 172,107 calories (According to buckeyeoutdoors.com)
Add Basal Metabolic Calories for my size and (ever growing) weight during that time period: 1415 X 455 days = 643, 825 calories
Add number of calories over BMR that you must consume to gain 20 pounds: 3500 calories/pound X 20 pounds = 70,000 calories
That means in the last 15 months I have consumed 885, 932 calories. The really scary part is that is only an average of 1950 calories per day.
I can eat that many calories as a midday snack without even really trying.
So if I keep working out at pre-ironman intensity and eating like I have been (which I actually suspect is significantly more than 1950 calories/day) I can expect to fucking explode by Christmas.
Quit bitching RBR, what are you going to DO?
I started talking to a nutritionist right before IMCdA, but I didn't want to change anything right before the race (lot of good that did me. I digress...) then immediately after the race I had a mini-meltdown that resulted in 2 weeks of some pretty serious binge eating.
Now I have started following her suggestions and we are working on incorporating these strange green foods into my diet. I think they call them vegetables. I call them garnish. In the past they have typically been responsible for holding up my salad dressing or cheese sauce. I can't remember the last time I ate a zucchini that wasn't breaded, deep fried, and dipped in ranch.
But seriously, I am trying to learn how to eat in a way that will support, and is in accordance with, my new active lifestyle.
That will help with what to eat, but as a binge eater I need help with how much. My idea of portion control is, "Dude, I can have cake. I don't even feel nauseous yet."
For that piece of the equation I have joined Weight Watchers (yes, again), This time I am doing the whole program. Even the stupid, fucking meetings. Whatever. Like I know more than them? I trained for an Ironman and gained 20 pounds, for Christ sake.
Obviously, I could use some help.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
A WOMAN OF LEISURE
Ahem..., sorry to all you people that have to, umm..., work and stuff. That must suck. [insert toothy grin]
Let's see, last time we left off I had decided to do Vineman 2010. Now, what I neglected to mention is that Formulaic has also stated his intentions to be at Vineman 2010. He will tell you on his blog, like next year some time since he is all wrapped up in being a new daddy and resting on his Ironman laurels (which, believe you me, I would be doing in a MUCH louder, MUCH more obnoxious way had things worked out differently in Coeur d'Alene, but I digress...)
By the way Ms. Kelly and Form, we need new baby pictures and PRONTO!
IronJane has also indicated that she might be interested in coming to Vineman 2010 as well!! Now, she knows me well enough that I am taking her "hmmm", as a firm commitment and will bug her mercilessly.
In other "IronJane Official Bad Assery" news, she has also officially announced that she is taking on IMFL in November, because she is IronJane and that is how she rolls!
Anyone else considering Vineman 2010? (Come on, IronMisty, IronSnoopy, ShirleyPerly, IronMissy, and JohnnyTri, you know you have been missing Northern Cali! Waddler, you will be ready for IM #2 by then! Carolina John, you are ready for the big time! PunkRockTriGuy, you can run a marathon or two the week before it will be right up your alley!)
You know, there is also a SUPER woman friendly, cut off friendly half-iron at the same time called Barb's Race (hint hint, Stef, Calyx, Donna, Diana, Lisa-slow-and-steady, Penny, AKA Alice, Lindsay, and any other tri girls or burgeoning tri girls out there! I am sure Sarah will need a recovery Half-iron after CdA) Just curious...
Yes, I have actually been doing that. I had a pouty, petulant week after CdA where I just ate VAST quantities of HORRENDOUSLY bad food and refused to work out, but I am over it and back in the saddle!
Saturday: Long Ride: 39 miles
I was asked by the gals that helped me with my 2.5 mile swim if I wanted to do a ride with them last Saturday. They are sweet, fun, and cool and I was very excited to be asked and replied,
Sure! I would love to!
Then they tell me they are going to climb Mt. Hamilton.
Mt. Hamilton is a ride that I have semi-avoided during my training. It is a 20 mile climb of about 5300 ft on a narrow mountain road. It is often used as a training ride for the Death Ride, but is apparently easier than any of the passes at that one since you are not at elevation, but it was plenty tough for me, thank you.
Yesterday: First open water swim since CdA: 0.75 mile
It is really called Gull Park, which, honestly, does not make it sound any more enticing to me
I am just saying...
Next up: San Francisco Marathon, July 26th
Now that Coeur d'Alene is behind me I can start to get excited about SFM. To be honest, I don't feel ready for the damn thing, but I am not going for a PR I am just going to have a good time and to celebrate my birthday! I am turning 40 in July 25th. I am not usually a birthday person, but I am kind of excited about turning 40.
Plus I get to see Willie again! He is my brother from another mother. I swear. Over the past year and half I have seen that we share a lot of the same demons as well, as the same gifts and sometimes, we both often find them hard to tell apart. :o) He is a great friend and I am VERY excited to see him again. Even if it will only be for a second and a half before he drops me like a bad habit to go finish with one of his blazing marathon times. Whatever. Stupid fast people.
AND I get to FINALLY meet Penny!! Penny is my first Blogger buddy and she has been a source of support and inspiration to me for almost 2 years now! We share our love of animals and running and it is about damn time that we get to run together!
AND I get to meet PunkRockTriGuy! He is CRAZY and I just adore him! If you have not read about his insane marathoning, triathloning, and cycling adventures you simply must! Hilarious and inspirational!
Roadbunner and Julianne will be out there too! And I am hoping to catch a glimpse as their pace group blazes by me! (Someday, ladies, someday I will be able to keep up with your pace group, which I know is a hour slower than your PR!)
Sadly, the beautiful Jolynn was supposed to do this run with us, but she is injured and I am not positive, but I am pretty sure a road marathon is out of the question. But, she and I will be reunited on the trails again soon. I just know it! (See, I have been reading on my Blackberry I just can't comment from there)
My Run Buddy (not to be confused with LA Run Buddy. Man, I need to get better at the nickname thing) is getting married on my actual birthday, so I am celebrating with a marathon the next day! I am the matron of honor for her wedding (boy, that is a ego building title if I ever heard one) and I have been busy running around doing last minute wedding shit, throwing her shower and bachelorette party, and such.
Anyhoo... I need to get reading and commenting! I am so far behind I can see my own ass!
Side note: Holy Crap! What an epic post about nothing! I owe you for the hour of your life you will never get back if you actually read this whole damn thing. And if you followed all the links? Christ. I am pretty sure I can not pay that back.
This is what happens when I have pent up blogging energy! I will be back with other goals and future races I am planning!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
I have taken some time to process, pout, contemplate, snivel, examine, and generally piss and moan. One of my biggest fears has been to work really hard at something, give it all I have, and still fail. Well, that happened and I am here to tell you that it SUCKED ASS, but it did not kill me. It is not even close to the worst thing that has ever or could ever happen to me. So time to go forward. I am ready to move on.
With that said I have made a decision regarding my next Ironman attempt.
I have agonized over this. Many of you know I was looking at Redman and Beach to Battleship this year. I think I wanted to "erase" this failure as quickly as possible. Plus I would get to see many friends that will be out there racing, but several things made me decide that those races weren't right for me this year.
1. My family has already made many financial and time sacrifices for me to pursue this goal. My husband does not do triathlon and traveling that distance again so soon would eliminate a vacation we had wanted to take in April. That is really not fair to him.
2. Both races are during the school year and would require me to take time off from school. I am a teacher, I need to fit this into the time I already have off.
3. I have work to do. I am too slow. I am not being self-deprecating. I am being honest.
I truly believe that I have the endurance necessary to complete an Ironman, but that is only part of the task, the other part is to be able to do it within the prescribed amount of time. I am too close to the cut offs. If any small mishap occurs or, as we have seen, if there are less than ideal conditions I can not make the time requirement.
I want to go into my next Ironman attempt with a better cushion on those times. (Umm, and a little less cushion on me. More about that later) Of course, I have now chosen a race that has a shorter cut off. The Vineman mid-race cutoffs are all the same, but the overall cut off time is 16 hours. Yikes.
Looks like I have some speed work in my future.